COVID-19

I am a 25-year-old female. I'm an Education student at the University of Saskatchewan, going into my third year of the four-year program in the fall (if we're allowed back). I grew up in North Battleford, Saskatchewan. I love to learn and I love to cook. My favorite places to be are those where I am around family or close friends, and the outdoors. I love the mountains and the water: oceans, lakes, rivers, all of it. I especially love the trees. My favorite things are sunrises and soft blankets. And coffee. I love coffee. What I don't love is having all of this extra time on my hands to be literally alone with my thoughts. The brain is a powerful thing and my brain is extremely good at being my opponent when dealing with mental health. I thought I struggled before everyone was isolated. I had no clue what I was in for. 

School was cut short and pieces of our program were canceled. I feel like University students and all students in general are being ripped off because of this COVID. Life has become monotonous, even more so than it was before. A repetitive 3 day cycle: drink excessively, feel hungover and depressed, pull yourself together. That is my cycle, anyway. That's why I had to leave Saskatchewan. I was living in Warman, close to Saskatoon. I would visit my parents occasionally in North Battleford, but other than that all I was doing was sitting at home and drinking myself to oblivion. It was disgusting. There isn't much to do in Saskatchewan if you don't own any land. There are some walking trails and what-not by the river, but other than that there is nothing. Beer. And if I'm not drinking I am either lying around depressed and miserable with my circumstances or out on a road-trip to who knows where. 

So I left Saskatchewan and drove 15 hours out to British Columbia. I come here every summer and stay with my aunties. They are my other home. BC is my other home. There is more to do out here than in Saskatchewan. Lots of mountains to hike. Different things to see. But I'm sure after awhile this place will become routinized and monotonous too. I refuse to be stuck. The government wants us to stay in one place but I don't know how to do that. I can't do that. I'd rather shoot myself in the face than be stuck in one place. I don't get sick anyway. The last time I was sick was in 2018, and the time before that was in 2011. I'm not invincible, but I'd rather get sick than be trapped.